Tuesday, December 10, 2013

This is a story in words of an unusual kind

I don't know how to say to you what I really wanna say to you
I don't know how to get you to nitice me the way I want you to notice me
I want you to love me and I know you do but you just aren't always good at showing it
You make me feel I don't really matter 
I feel like when you look at me you don't really look at me
You say you don't like to read my words because they make you sad
Is that because you know they're true? 
Perhaps I'm selfish in wanting certain things
But honestly I'm no different from the rest
I want all your love and affection
So far I've got your love you say
But you're lacking in affection

Tears are coming to fast now and I'm forced to lay still
So many thoughts are forming, this feelings too real
Breaking apart I ask, "if I disappeared would you know where to find me?"
 
Inside I know I want you to find me I want you to find me and grab me pull me in tight, to wipe away my tears and sorrows, tell me everything's gonna be alright
Tell me you love me, tell me you're sorry, and tell me I'm wrong
I want you to scoop me up while I cling to you with me face Burried in the crook of your neck
Take me home and lay me in bed, tell me you'll be right back when I beg you to stay and to not leave me
Then go to the fridge and grab me somthing to drink, come back and get on your knees, say, "Babe I love you, you scared me, don't do that again. I've promised you so much what more can I give?" 
I'd look at and say Lover you just gave me what I needed 
You found me that's all that matters I was lost
you proved to me you really do know me, you care, you pay attention, I'm important to you.....

But that's only if you found me:/ .....


Monday, December 2, 2013

Ill never be good enough
He'll always want more
How do I live with that
Is it possible
He shows them interest
While I'm on the side
They get him to talk
While I'm on a silenced line
I'll never be good enough
He'll always want more
I don't have what they have
And I'm not there
It's hard to understand
But they get it
They've got inside jokes
I'm left with notes
I'll never be good enough
He'll always want more
How do I live with that
Is it possible