Shawnee Man

 I look at him and he's like artwork

tracing his features with my eyes

He's so handsome I could watch him all day

Just admiring him

His perfectly plump lips, his gentle yet stern eyes

I could look at this man forever

disapointed

 wanna reach for the bottle 

my mouth watering for a taste

you want to know why im mad

you really want to know

as if you couldnt already figure it out 

if youd open your eyes and put the bottle down

if i wanted a life like this id have stayed with my ex

same old shit never a goodnight call or text

just drinking with the buddies and we all know

cant trust a drunk man. 

sometimes a sober one either

the same goes for woman

I dont trust a single person when they drink

thats somthing I just cant shake

Just met too many that were just fake

they do dumb shit like lie and cheat

then blame it on alcohol yet they dont stop

I cant sit back and live like this

Im not okay with staying home while my partner goes out drinking with friemds

Maybe one night as long as they came home at a decent time to me

this drinking and gettiing drunk shit is for the birds 

im over it im done with it im out

If I wanted this id have stayed with my ex

thats not me trying to compare this to that 

this is me seeing a pattern and recognizing a fact

Im over it Im out peace be with you

You wonder why Im stepping away

Its because im tired of the game we play

been there done that I promise myself id never go back

so im cool with just having friends and being alone

I dont trust my heart anymore she falls in love too deeply

i become too blind to things and ignore the loud voices 

trying to prove love will prevail

then feeling so down because of the fail

getting my hopes up is a pattern indeed

so here I stand to say I now set myself free

I belong to no man and no man belongs to me

Unless God so wields it so

I will just focus on my own path

whats meant to be will be

so when you wonder what the look is in my eyes

I am not mad

only wanted more from this

the word is disappointed.

StAR*