Sunday, December 30, 2012

Would you go back?

If YOU could go BacK in time THROUGH restaurants and ALL of the parties and all of the SEX, alcohol, Day Trips, Bus Rides, GOODBYES, Emotions.... Friends and through ALL of the friends OF friends trough all the second THOUGHTS, dancing, LEARNING and Getting to know Everything, pain, RUIN and nights that you spent in  meant and meaningless I LOVE YOU'S..........Through all of the Heartache, blood, Sweat, and ANXIETY and nights laughing, and Telling Stories through all of the Infidelities, LYING, cheating and Questions through all the SUMMERS and answers tHrOuGh DaTeS, Money, &food... There is to know ABOUT someone.....Through all of the dreams &through all of the TANGLED MESS, would you still walk up to that PRETTY girl at the PARTY and say........Hi.

Fall in love again

I fell in love all over again today
I'm not sure what you did
But you did exactly that
Made me fall, again
I thought the love and passion 
had gone, but I was wrong
So wrong, you showed me that
You came into view and said
I've come to you
Got to let you know
We belong together
You wrapped your arms around me
"I love you, have you forgot?"
Such a sad thing you whisper
But I look up then
Into your eyes I stare 
Such love and passion there
How'd I ever doubt
You'd told me a million times
You were going no where
Yet I had refused to believe 
You could love me so 
But what a fool I was, you show me
Kissing me so sweetly, mind spins
Some how you take my breath away
Just like you used to 
When I had believed you could love me
Oh, and now you love me
Love on me, with me, for me
I can now see, we're meant to be
I will never let go of such joy
How'd I ever doubt this
Why'd I ever even think to let go
I love you, it's true
Now I know, 
because you got me to
Fall in love again
And all it took was for you
To hold me, show me love
That's all it takes to
Fall in love again 

I can't make you

I can't make you understand
I can't make you feel how I feel 
I can't always hold your hand
I can't always be real

But i try to be the best
I try to be there for you
Put now my mind to rest
I know my feelings are true

No matter what 
Remember to be tough
If I'm not right beside you
I'll be just a few steps behind

I wonder just sometimes
If perhaps I'm fooling myself
maybe I wonder
Are you trying to make yourself feel
What I feel? You can't do that

It has to be real
The way you feel
you wont be happy
If it doesn't come naturally

But I cant make you 
I know I just can't make you
Love me

http://youtu.be/NXnhWthZ_k4

No more I say no more

I can't take anymore I say what is happening to me?
Frustrated constantly and just moody
I can't even recognize my face in the mirror
I should be happy I have no reason to be so upset
I have the perfect man who loves me
I have a family that drives me crazy but cares
I have friends that make me smile
But yet there is a hole inside 
I feel like its growing bigger constantly
Whats wrong they say?
and I want to cry..I don't know!
I just don't know anymore
Just as everything starts to seem right
I suddenly find myself awake at night
Scared of what? Nightmares?
But didn't i once concur them?
Ugh I want to screamm!!! 
I can't bare this time! I'm losing my mind!
I can't do this on my own
But you say your there
You care, you want to help
But i'm scared, you cant help me
I can't put this on you
I'm losing my mind again but why
But how!?!?!?!?!!?!?!?! 
I worked to hard to give up, give in
But I just cant take anymore
No more I say no more!! 
I will take no more I can't I just cant 

Saturday, December 29, 2012

Universal-William Butcher:)

I work at Richelieus, with a bunch of bitchy dudes, yeah, that's a factory, go ahead baddass, laugh at me, I'm makin money is that such a tragedy, you're probably sittin on a couch, that's at your mama's house, while I'm droppin bombers meow, tearin it up with my piranha mouth, everybody heard a big bang they wonderin what has gone down, they bettin it's a plane, they bettin it's a bird, nope, it's WillDaBeast, better start spreadin the word, this Heavenly burst is only the start, I'm showin my art, ownin these masterpieces like a Beethoven's part, they say "that kid's gonna go really far, he so bright that he even glows in the dark", I've got the spirit of a large stallion, and hold the mystery that a dark alley can, I'm here if you need to call or pen pal a friend, make you calmer than some valley wind
(hook)
(What?) I like talkin bout myself
(Who?) So does everybody else
(Why?) Cause the world is just a paradoxical blackhole, and to the whole universe we're all just a bunch of tadpoles
(verse2)
I worked at Richelieus then got laid off, my rent for these months will never get paid off, goin down so fast they all say stop, I will not, I'm 18 but still think I shoulda gave a fuck, cause everybody's goin crazy like a bunch of squirrels cravin nuts, my talent - haters say it's luck, while I'm livin life doin basic stuff, proovin myself, cause in this worlds there's no love so I'm trynna make space for some, creatin, making you thirsty for the rain to come, yeah I'll make you some, with native ways that'll overtake your brain and lungs, fantastic bars straight out the cranium, the type of music they play loud in stadiums, crank the bass up and keep my jams bumpin, gotchu out your seat, these fake fucks say that it's nothin, but they'll be shoutin for weeks, memorizing every verse, set aside their hefty smirks, lifted like puffing off the best of herbs, its fuckin jaw dropping amazing, bomb dropping; you craving, no stopping, no time wasting, it's all so sublime, with this music, I hope to find, a state of mind to clear the air, break my spine to share the care, cause I can't take the hate, it's gone to a greater state, we act like our faces just got sprayed with mace, and all I want is love and peace to take its place, before it's too late, and then we can't take it back, don't lose faith; whatchu have to say to that
(hook)
(What?) I like talkin bout myself
(Who?) So does everybody else
(Why?) Cause the world is just a paradoxical blackhole, and to the whole universe we're all just a bunch of assholes
(verse3)
This way of life got us sayin stuff, like let's stay up and blaze it up, just a bunch of faded fucks, everyday skate a bunch, bad grades always blamed on drugs, call out distractions, blame it on the groups, throw grenades, close their eyes aim and shoot, got a chain on you, grounded to the core, find another reason to pound you to the floor, dream of leaving, living and being lifted, in life - sitting believing you missed it, as teens we wish we could be adults, and adults wish they could miss all their stupid calls, take back all their foolish falls, all the mistakes and all the regrets, all the hate drownded by alcohol and cigarettes, all things above ignored with a fix, itching and mixing added more to the list, could there be more to life than this, imagine doin somethin and doin nothin but wish, searching for the lost somethin we miss, in a doctor's fish tank we that abundance of fish, swimming hardly, surviving by a couple crumbs of chips, bet we never thought it'd come to this
 

William Butcherposted


(verse1)
Sometimes I feel like a castaway, laughing half my days, acting scatterbrained, every second passes with tons of facts to face, so I put em down written with my pen, so they don't stay twistin in my head, ramblin like that crazy ass baboon, jammin, never can it, stayin cheesy like cartoons, stallin, monologuin ballin, all my bars through, bars that I work hard for, with elbow greese likearm wars, jumpin around crazy like some parkour, puttin in my hard work, stickin around like heart burn, juicy, delicious flow - call it Starburst, got a taste that stays sittin on your lips, within days have you craved, while I'm dazed, spittin with a lisp, yeah I got my speech impediment, like a tweakers medicine, I'm injectin into every resident, but I still don't got my message sent, then again, I haven't reached perfection yet, still I have dreams of bein there, achieve and breath in air, they say if it ain't meant to be then leave it there, but I'mma take risks, and aim to be the greatest, the game ain't the same without a couple Natives, insane, and maintainin, hastily get famous and maybe real in double payment, wait a minute, fuck the famous part, I'm just trynna make my mark, maybe save some hearts, with my bat shit crazy bars, trust no one and play my part, use this imagination that'll take me far
(hook)
hey, I'mma levitate, all the haters - let em hate, cause when officials end the race, bitches always come in second place, producin only the best productions, steppin up, seven-nothin, I'm that red button; the next destruction, I'm levelheaded; no head concussion, the word of my Will Power will heavily spread one month in, reppin with adrenaline that's kept me runnin, advice takin medication must have led to somethin
(verse2)
18 years passed, didn't think I'd make it through, life was a mystery case - no clues,now I'm creatin, stayin up a day or two, makin music off the chain, just to play for you, and let me quickly remind you, I'm sicker than swine flu, I'm listened to like iTunes, slippity-slick like ice dude, quickly spittin all my lines through, I'm better than you; infinite times two, and just because the sky's blue, don't mean you can do what I do

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Broken heart

My heart is breaking thats how it feels
But i have no reason to cry right?
Still got my lover still got my life
So whats the reason for no sleep at night

Im silenced now no words to say
Laying in bed, a weeping wimper
Such sadness leaves me lost today
Why am I like this? What question i have.

Friday, December 21, 2012

tempted

I was tempted to break
The silence around me suffocating
The rage inside me building
Growing, and pushing for life
It begged for a chance to escape
To be freed into this world
and to what Madness did I give in?
The one inside me
Always just below the surface
I was tempted
to give her the life she demanded
I was tempted to give in and let go
The silence now filled with shattered glass
Asleep no more, as time came to pass
This was the beginning
the start of something never thought of
Fighting my demon, at war
I was tempted to break

Monday, December 17, 2012

For you

my heart i pour out to you
clinging to the memories of love
The thought that i am wrong lingers
but falter, I do not
you mistake me as a fool
Yet in the end you see reason

Thursday, December 13, 2012

This poem i really like:)

Journey through a damaged mind: wakeing to a good dream: I stir in my sleep as I dream of you Watching as are love grew I wake up to find you next to me I am happy as can be I pull you close an...

Wednesday, December 12, 2012

stop them

Stop them
My tears
they threaten to fall
Stop them
stop them
Stop them all

Friday, December 7, 2012

random... :D

My heart of silver
You pocket
My steady breath
You take
My great wisdom
You swallow
My crazy ambition
You tame
My steady pace
You speed
My blissful taste
You sour
My wonder-es eye
You catch
My free hands
You chain

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Love too Hard?

Love too hard
Drives me crazy
Flattered still call me your baby
Want to bring you around
Show you how to play it down
You know you think you got it
But there are many more things to learn
Just get on over here, just need a kiss
Letting your lips linger
Just a little longer than you need
What? The game is a tease
Screw it up, no screw it over
Playing again, red rover red rover
Tumbling to the hard ground below
Jumping on you boy, now you know?
Three hearts of silver fine
Oh Lover boy please be mine
Show you how to dance
Tap it just right
Keep up the pace
We'll party all night
Never ending dance floor
Though begging stops, don't be fooled
I'm always craving more
Door slams shut then, but that's okay
We will be right back at it, at the begining of the next day
over and over playing around
Listen close, you hear that sound
Oh my ride and ride
Crazy fire stirring, just wildly inside
You know my way will be fun
Once we get started
Wont want to be done
Love or lust, right now don't care
Just push in right, almost there
Going good, both get pleasure 
So all is fair ;)

Sleeping

My heart starts to beat rapidly
As I stumble through the crowd
I'm looking for you again
Yet again you hide from me?
Stirring now in deep slumber
My dream takes a turn
I'm laying with you
You feel so comfortable
Arms around me, hands on stomach
Your breath hitting the back of my neck
And I fall asleep filled with your warmth
Listening to your breathing
Then I awake in a daze
Not in reality, Keep that in mind
My mind is blurry
But I hear it, That faint sound
My baby is crying for me
Please, Awake, I shake you
Where is our baby?
Gone, alone, crying
Then I fall back to the bed
*You wrap me up in your arms
My daze fades and I drift to sleep again
Then suddenly, eyes blazing with fire
Bodies so close we're set with desire
Clinging tight, dare not let go
Where we go from here
I do not know
But let not madness take me
Shush, Now.
With certain truths
Dare not awake me.*