Falling pieces

I'm falling to peices I'm stumbling down body hitting the ground full speed I'm crying here alone surrounded by water the welcoming soothing calming water soon it absorbs everything and I start to relax but almost too much and I find myself falling I'm falling pieces just wither away in this water no one around to pull me out I'm letting go and enjoying the piece and silence

Everything

It's all hurting right now 

My body, heart, mind, and soul

Everything

Trying to stand tall and strong

But this sickness is weakening 

Everything

But you're still gonna be around

Stick by my side no matter what, through 

Everything 

Yet still worry leaks in and surrounds

Who would want to claim a girl like me and

Everything

Gotta keep standing, can't fall

Gotta keep walking to you, you're my

Everything

This maybe the start of a tradgety

But holding on tight we will last till the end of

Everything

I know something's I refuse to tell

How would I even begin to tell you

Everything

It would be too hard

It would be to sad and

Everything

Not wanting to give up, wanting to believe

I will come out on top even after

Everything

Love till the end or

End till the loves 

Everything

It's hard

It's hard very hard to take another step forward 

These dreams are haunting me

Yes I know they are but dreams I shouldn't coward

But they feel so real you see

Sometimes I wake up thrashing 

Sometimes I wake up in bloody tears

These feelings I'm tired of just mashing

I need to start over coming my fears

I'm just so scared though

Like always and just before

There are things inside you'd never know

Deep insides A never opened forbidden door

............

I'm startled to be stumbled apun 

I was never meant to be found in such madness 

Please understand I'm trying I really truly am

Still stand by me till the end

My heart beats and thrives for you

You've given me my life back

You tried to set me free

Now I'm trying my hardest to fight these chains

Instead of surrendering to these nightmares

Understand I don't mean to push you away

I'm just cursed in that very way

But I'll fight to the end to make everything ok

I love you and I promise I'm going to get better

It's just hard...

I'm wondering how much you really care?