It's hard

It's hard very hard to take another step forward 

These dreams are haunting me

Yes I know they are but dreams I shouldn't coward

But they feel so real you see

Sometimes I wake up thrashing 

Sometimes I wake up in bloody tears

These feelings I'm tired of just mashing

I need to start over coming my fears

I'm just so scared though

Like always and just before

There are things inside you'd never know

Deep insides A never opened forbidden door

............

I'm startled to be stumbled apun 

I was never meant to be found in such madness 

Please understand I'm trying I really truly am

Still stand by me till the end

My heart beats and thrives for you

You've given me my life back

You tried to set me free

Now I'm trying my hardest to fight these chains

Instead of surrendering to these nightmares

Understand I don't mean to push you away

I'm just cursed in that very way

But I'll fight to the end to make everything ok

I love you and I promise I'm going to get better

It's just hard...