Agony to the heart

I'm so tired 

I'm so weak

I fake a smile

And try to sleep

I brush my hair

Do my makeup

But always knowing

It'll never be enough

Put on nice clothes

Pick out some jewelry 

Just hoping you'll notice me

I'm not that pretty

I'm not that smart

But I have great passion

And a very big heart

Dwindling and fading

My body starts to decay

Delicate and fragile

I go day by day

Living with deniel

I feel it in my bones

I know it in my heart

Slowly my minds slipping away

And someday soon

I'll have to part

I keep it all a secret

Or so I attempt

To tell you of such a thing

Would be agony to the heart

~should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements

Even if it leads no where~